|Posted on December 31, 2017 at 7:55 AM||comments (0)|
Hopefully in the coming year I will come to terms with my realtionship with God. I started out this year empty, void of passion for anything. I walked away from God while hoping deep down inside he wouldn't walk away from me. I hoped that no matter how unfaithful I was, he would never leave me nor forsake me. I hoped he understood what I was going through and would help me along even though I didn't have the courage to ask for help. Truthfully, I t...Read Full Post »
|Posted on April 12, 2017 at 4:05 PM||comments (0)|
The sun warms my skin but my heart’s still cold. I’m numb. I’m void of all of the deeply emotional feelings I used to live with on a daily basis. The fuel for my contemplations has run dry. Am I callused I wonder. Am I hardened from a severe winter in my life? I don’t have the answers and I’m in no desperate need to find them. I’m comfortable in this state. It’s easy. It’s peaceful. It’s quiet. It’...Read Full Post »
|Posted on December 23, 2016 at 10:20 AM||comments (0)|
If 2016 is the year of goodbyes for me, then I sure hope the new year brings many hellos.
As I close the door and leave behind the remnants of the life I had, I take very little with me into 2017. I've learned about people during this past year. I've learned about myself and I've learned the difference between what looks r...Read Full Post »
|Posted on November 21, 2016 at 12:20 AM||comments (0)|
I love Jesus. I want to worship Him, talk to Him and about Him, sing songs to Him and about Him, I want to be continually in communion with Him. Jesus is my Lord and there is no other for me but He.
That is the bottom line. From there all decisions I make must come. From there, I must grow- rooted in Him.
I feel an ever growing need to share this love an...Read Full Post »
|Posted on October 31, 2016 at 12:20 AM||comments (0)|
11:20am Sunday October 30, 2016
I just walked out of church for the second week in a row simply to avoid confrontation. For the same reason I avoid contact with people associated with my past married life, I avoid these extremely painful memory-inducing situations. I did not leave my family because I was in search of greater pleasures for myself. I left to protect myself from further damage. I left seeking saf...Read Full Post »
|Posted on October 1, 2016 at 3:35 PM||comments (0)|
Post Concert - Sling Shot David Tour - NYC - September 22, 2016
The title says 'the end' but truly it is only the beginning of a new leg of my journey called life. For on this day in history, my life will forever be remembered as the day everything changed. I can't even write about all of the transformations but there is just a few hours left to share of this wonderful day. You see, many people...Read Full Post »
|Posted on September 30, 2016 at 9:30 AM||comments (1)|
SOB’s New York City, September 22, 2016- a day I will never forget.
By now you know the original intent of my travelling to NYC was simply to support David Augustine, a soldier in the Lord’s Army, known by the name Dee-1. If you’ve read parts 1 and 2 you also know that God had more in the works for this trip than I could have ever imagined. Still, there is more!
While sta...Read Full Post »
|Posted on September 29, 2016 at 11:40 AM||comments (0)|
Who knows the secrets of the heart but God?
This month I set out to make Him my number one priority by reading a chapter of Proverbs each day and praying daily and specifically for Dee-1 on his first ever headlining tour. I never imagined what would happen to me as I walked this journey more intimately with the Lord. Already I am changed.
From the moment I decided to get ser...Read Full Post »
|Posted on September 28, 2016 at 11:05 AM||comments (1)|
I am overwhelmed with how deeply the Lord is working things in my life. It occurred to me this morning as I meditated on His word that something big is changing in me. I used to get caught up in the little things of this Christian walk but after meeting some new people and hearing their testimonies I realize how limited my understanding is and I believe that the Lord is in the process of changing me to show me more of Himself. That right there is enough to ...Read Full Post »
|Posted on September 6, 2016 at 4:05 PM||comments (0)|
How do I tell this story in a few words, I think it's impossible, but I will try. I had to change my address on my checking account at the bank so I went to the local branch and sat with a banker. While in his office (the big office) I told him I had been waiting to make this change until I had all of my tickets purchased for the concert, the train etc. He asked me what concert and where I was going. Boom! Opens the door to the most enthusiastic Dee-1 fan run down of who, what , where, when...Read Full Post »
|Posted on September 6, 2016 at 8:15 AM||comments (0)|
There's a shift happening in my life. The waters have calmed for me personally but I as I look around I see others still in the storm. They can't hear me anymore, they've turned a deaf ear to me. All I can do is watch and pray. The storm is rising against them, I see it. I know I can't go pull them out. I know they have to get through it on their own, but watching them is agonizing.
I turn to the Lord who brought me out of the storm a...Read Full Post »
|Posted on September 4, 2016 at 7:50 AM||comments (0)|
September 4, 2016
I'm not looking for signs nor confirmation for any of my thoughts towards God. I really am just taking each day as it comes, waiting on Him and listening. The only reason I am writing each day is to have something to look back on. I'm not trying to teach you anything, and I don't have a great need to write out the details of my life like I once did. Yet "it" just happened again ri...Read Full Post »
|Posted on September 2, 2016 at 10:00 PM||comments (0)|
September 2, 2016
This morning when I woke up I read Proverbs 2 as planned. However I had no idea it was about wisdom prior to reading it this morning (especially vs. 7-12 kids bible spoke this plainly.) You see, before I went to bed late last night I wrote about being unsure about being wise.
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|Posted on September 1, 2016 at 4:25 PM||comments (0)|
What I want to write about and what comes out of me to write are two different things. No matter how hard I try to focus on writing "nice" things, it is always the struggle that screams to be penned. I've been fighting it for weeks, no... months. I thought maybe I was being negative in my thou...Read Full Post »
|Posted on July 29, 2016 at 7:30 PM||comments (3)|
We’re all motivated by love on some level, whether we’re passionate about good things or evil things the love of it moves us to action. It’s the love of nature that guides me to make conscious decisions about how I care for it. It’s the love of stories that keeps me reading books and the love of God that keeps ...Read Full Post »
|Posted on May 20, 2016 at 6:25 AM||comments (0)|
I didn't see that one coming! All I was thinking about yesterday was how I was going to handle being labeled "divorced." I never figured in how unpredictable people are, some more than others.
The good news is that God did in fact answer my heart's cry for strength and peace while...Read Full Post »
|Posted on May 19, 2016 at 7:20 AM||comments (0)|
May 19, 2016
Twenty years ago a meeting occurred with a Justice of the Peace to discuss the details of my marriage. Today I am meeting with a Judge to discuss the details of my divorce. In my endeavor to always move forward I try hard not to look back. It is nearly impossible to do though. This post is to document my thoughts and feelings today. If I ever I want to look back, it will be here.
One of my favorite aspects of being a born again believer ...Read Full Post »
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|Posted on March 24, 2016 at 10:40 AM||comments (0)|
I often say there's an o...Read Full Post »